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Intimacy...took my breath away

What is intimacy? No—really. What is it? Not the kind you post about. Not the kind you fake to feel whole. The kind that strips you. Metaphorically. Physically. Emotionally. Like standing naked on a stage with no script, no costume, no armor— just bone-deep truth and the terror of still being seen. And still—being asked to stay. Intimacy is not a look, or a touch, or the soft murmur of secrets in the dark. It’s the ache that comes when someone sees you— really sees you— and doesn’t run. It’s standing in the silence between their anger and your shame and not turning away. It’s not the first kiss. It’s the breath after, when you realize you didn’t flinch. Didn’t armor up. Didn’t fold into smaller shapes to be loved more easily. Intimacy is letting someone watch you fall apart— and not performing your grief. Letting them see the raw, unedited ache you’ve learned to hide behind smiles, jokes, accomplishments. It’s crying in a room with someone and not apologizing for it. It’s saying “I’m s...
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breathtaking

I didn’t know what love was until everything beautiful disappeared— and you stayed. Not because I asked. Not because I deserved it. But because something in you recognized the storm in me and didn’t flinch. You didn’t run when I went silent. Didn’t retreat when I shut down. You just stayed— quiet, present, holding the air beside me like it was enough. And I hated it. Because I didn’t know how to be loved without earning it. Without bleeding first. I didn’t know how to be touched without proving I was worth the damage. But you never asked for proof. You just stayed. Through the silence, through the edge, through every time I told you to go— and didn’t mean it. You stayed. Not to fix me. Not to rescue me. Just to be there while I learned how to stay alive. You didn’t ask for softness, but you made it safe to be soft. You never told me I was strong. You just kept showing up on the days I wasn’t. And maybe that’s what broke me open— not your passion, but your patience. The quiet kind. The ...

loneliness

Loneliness, to me, is one of the most complicated human experiences. And strangely, it often feels worse when you’re with someone than when you’re truly alone. When you’re physically alone, the emptiness feels expected. But when you're with someone and still feel unseen, unheard, or misunderstood—that’s a different kind of ache. A deeper one. I believe loneliness isn’t something we can escape. We are born alone. And if that’s the case, how can the presence of another person truly erase this feeling? It seems to me that loneliness is an integral part of being human . No matter who we’re with or how connected we appear to be, there’s always a space within us that no one else can fully enter. Instead of trying to get rid of that feeling, maybe we need to accept it. Embrace it. Learn to sit with it without fear. But as human beings, we’re terrified of it—afraid that if we let it in, it will consume us. And yet, I wonder: if it did consume us, would that be so bad? In many ways, th...

give up

I think we both should give up the idea of each other being perfect for each other. Because indeed if we are good for each other or let's say meant say meant for each other wouldn't I and you be together already and if we are not that means universe thinks we are better off this way...I know it's not easy atleast for me...otherwise I would have let you go long ago... but atleast you and me can try!!!

want

Who gets to say No, stay away, off limits What should I do About this pull, this want When will I Get to live for me, not others Where does it say You can only choose from this pool Why can’t I See, touch, explore you the way I want to How am I Supposed to shut it all out!!!!

walk away

How many times you can walk away from the person you want to be with the most. It takes tremendous self control to not give in to the feelings/pain/love you have for that person and keep your mouth absolutely shut infront of them because you are not right for them (never was, never will be because this world works in a certain way in terms of whom you can love or not and you are not fulfilling that criteria and never will). So everytime you see this person who are supposed to act non chalantly, especially in front of their better half. You have to keep in check of your feelings when everytime they are breaking infront of you and you are breaking with them, for them. You have to be in check everytime their partner don't understand their worth infront of you and only you what you won't do just to have a day in place of them!!! It is very difficult every single time but you have to do it, for you and most importantly for them!