Why is it that somehow you feel more intensely rather other than others....others who are meant to be yours or the others who are more integrated in your life than these people who you feel this intensely about... This ferocity of emotions which you feel about these individuals got you scared at your core..thid intensity either compile you to go all way to get them...or you get scared shitless with these whirlwindof emotions. Either way if they are still part of your life in any capacity you should consider yourself lucky. You don't have to be happy about the status of your relationship with them but you should be content that they are in your life. Because if they are not their in your life you somehow loose the reason to be...somehow your existence in this world seems invalid...with that I don't mean to say that if they are not part of your life you should cease to exist...but in my opinion for life is not about existence rather life is about meaning and they are your reason...