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Losing

Slowly losing hope
Fresh out as I'm going broke.
I'm trying picking up
but still falling behind
How much am I going to have to sacrifice?

Because I'm tired of losing everyone
Watching the people slipping by
It seems now pointless getting up
At this point I would rather mess up
Leave this place behind.
But If only I could leave my mind,

I try to find different ways to escape.
But after it's all said and done.
I end up back in the same place

Paper, words, ink....Things I use.
Only to get accused.
Or to get away
Left with feelings of guilt & shame
When that was not my intention.
I'm just trying to figure me out.
Before I stray too far away.
From remaining sane.

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